i love bowling
sportsschool05-08
AUT09
sportsschool09(don't ask, okay wait. do)
19/01/1992 hits
i won't die without my phone :D i'm stubborn but i'm trying to fix it.
i want a whole day that i can spend doing exactly what i want,
with who i want.
i want a best friend right here right now
i badly need to buy new shoes i need to go shopping for shirts soon
i need to lose fat, pretty badly now
i want someone to teach me guitar
& someone as noob as me to jam with
i believe that life is NOT meant to suck
may God teach me to love.
"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequete, but that we are powerful beyond measure...
It is our light, not darkness, that most frightens us."
Saturday, July 26, 2008
christianity is a religion, and a religion must have a cause, a reason for being, the ability to make a change in people. and the way i see it, christianity only makes changes in people through giving them realizations.
i realised that the reason why my "output" of love, and care to others was so low was, i didn't have enough "imput". in a river, it must have a source, before it can feed itself to a larger stream. and i realised that i didn't really feel love from God because i didn't realise what the Bible has to say by "love", and it just hit me during the sermon. to LOVE, is to VALUE. "for God so VALUED the earth that He sent His one and only Son to die for our sins so that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life."
and it hurt, not feeling loved really hurt. wondering why God put me through sufferings and bad days hurt. but again today i came to a realization. God only makes us feel sad, so we can feel happy. God only makes us see suffering, so we can feel joy. without love there can be no hate, but also without hate, there can be no love. to do badly for something and have your parents still say "i love you anyway" nowadays is rare. and i'm glad i know mine would probably do it for me. and so once again, i feel loved. valued by God himself. who cared so much as to send the one perfect atonement for OUR suffering, for OUR sins, He took it upon Himself to stop our suffering, and that one perfect atonement is cleansed, through Jesus' blood.
i am imperfect, that is why God's grace can work in me, Christians have to admit their imperfections, before God can show them otherwise.
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
5:47 AM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
i awoke, i ran, i pespired, i died, i showered, i slept.
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
4:08 PM
alright, that was irritating, i just about finished writing my post, and my wonderful IE browser crashed on me, damn thing. haha
SICK-- alright! my post again, it won't come out identical, not even similar, that's one thing i've learnt about me, although (i hope) my character is consistent, what i write, rarely is. HAHA. well. i finally realised why i keep sleeping as of late. I HAVE BEEN SICK! so i'm not freaky, or aspiring to grow sideways.
TMR-- i must wake up to go run, not gym, run - why? because running burns up more than gym, and i'm too lazy to wash that extra towel that i'll have to use to gym. also, running generally finishes in 15, if not 20 mins. :D
MUSIC-- well. i haven't had time to play much piano or guit, or rather, i never used the time, this weekend. SAADLY. i cannot bring the keys into hostel. so before i leave home i must must must must play a little something before i leave home.
CF-- sasha's doing sharing this week! and its on thursday again :D hope it doesn't make timing difficult for anybody.
IN OTHER NEWS-- mars' invaders have attempted to plummet straight down into the Atlantic ocean, and set up base there. However they have burned up in the atmosphere, leaving not even moon dust behind. God bless America!
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
5:03 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
I'm going off for national training at jurong. finally get to train, i've been pretty sick the whole week man. anyway i really need to get a couple'o balls redrilled. hope i can find transport to uncle walters later. hmms.
anyhow, i think cf went great, but if any of the cf guys read this and you think otherwise, please comment! we cannot improve without it, also, trying to organise a cf outing, which'll be pretty cool.
i need to learn to trust in God. and listen to what He has to say instead of acting in my own actions, because while i MAY be right, He always is. time for another change in life - if you want to walk on water you must first step out of the boat
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
5:25 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
okay i'm all ready and geared up for tonight's cf, i hope it's gonna be the first big thing of many, we're finally using live worship again. :) god be with us. and god's name be worshiped above all.
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
5:15 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
i'm sick, down with a flu-like virus that is not only not totally cool, it's totally not cool.
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
1:55 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
haven't blogged in awhile, anyway today was a GOD INSPIRED DAY. lets see the chain of seemingly random events that caused it.
last night i slept pretty early, if i hadn't, i definitely would not have woken up for lunch, let alone service in the morning. besides, i felt i was about to go on a downward spiral shutting down cf soon or handing it over to someone else. i wanted to quit, just be a nobody. because nobody looks at nobodys, and it would have been so easy.
i was awoken by my sister at 8:50, with 20 mins to leaving for church. contemplating weather or not i should go, i was compelled by a "random" urge to cite the following, as taught by my youth ministry chairman and small-group leader Adriel : i am a child of God, i have a chosen destiny to change the world for Jesus Christ." and consequently, the thought struck me, "i shouldn't be wasting time on my bed then!"
within the next half-an-hour, several things have proceeded. i bathed, washed up, went to church without my bag or bible. It was then that i remembered Adriel was preaching today, and his messages are VERY GOOD.
after being seated on the floor due to overwhelming response from the youth flowing into the prayer&praise service i was dissappointed, seeing a random woman that i didn't know on the front stage opening in the verses of Joshua, i thought Adriel wasn't going to preach after all. Thank God i was wrong.
Adriel's message touched me today, it was about having a vision to change, how practicalism is really just skepticism put into another word, how we have to look forward, and see what we can do for God, not what God can do for us, how we should bring forward a new worship, by letting Him work in us, giving up our lives to Him, and being silent, to hear His calling and answer to His works He has for us. we have to be still to know His voice and even stiller to hear His heart.
My post doesn't have to relate to anyone, but i have to put it up. today is the day i'm turning around, and i want to remember it.
God, don't save MY cf.
save YOUR cf.
if you wanna FaLaLaLa.
4:39 AM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
wow, today i had a pretty long day, went out with mandy for a bit, watched hancock, its so funny, but pretty good storyline (: wish they made it into a series, i'd buy.
anywayy, was going to watch another show 21 with queenie, but in the end she turned out all emo, so we skipped that. anyhow, watched step-up2 with nash and queenie after renting the video. cool moves, totally.
not feeling much of a descriptive or wordy person today. i just got my first holyshit in dota online in dont know how long, and got blamed for hacking. sigh, noobs will be noobs.
i want to learn more piano pieces, so lazy though. =/