i love bowling
sportsschool05-08
AUT09
sportsschool09(don't ask, okay wait. do)
19/01/1992 hits
i won't die without my phone :D i'm stubborn but i'm trying to fix it.
i want a whole day that i can spend doing exactly what i want,
with who i want.
i want a best friend right here right now
i badly need to buy new shoes i need to go shopping for shirts soon
i need to lose fat, pretty badly now
i want someone to teach me guitar
& someone as noob as me to jam with
i believe that life is NOT meant to suck
may God teach me to love.
"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequete, but that we are powerful beyond measure...
It is our light, not darkness, that most frightens us."
Saturday, July 26, 2008
christianity is a religion, and a religion must have a cause, a reason for being, the ability to make a change in people. and the way i see it, christianity only makes changes in people through giving them realizations.
i realised that the reason why my "output" of love, and care to others was so low was, i didn't have enough "imput". in a river, it must have a source, before it can feed itself to a larger stream. and i realised that i didn't really feel love from God because i didn't realise what the Bible has to say by "love", and it just hit me during the sermon. to LOVE, is to VALUE. "for God so VALUED the earth that He sent His one and only Son to die for our sins so that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life."
and it hurt, not feeling loved really hurt. wondering why God put me through sufferings and bad days hurt. but again today i came to a realization. God only makes us feel sad, so we can feel happy. God only makes us see suffering, so we can feel joy. without love there can be no hate, but also without hate, there can be no love. to do badly for something and have your parents still say "i love you anyway" nowadays is rare. and i'm glad i know mine would probably do it for me. and so once again, i feel loved. valued by God himself. who cared so much as to send the one perfect atonement for OUR suffering, for OUR sins, He took it upon Himself to stop our suffering, and that one perfect atonement is cleansed, through Jesus' blood.
i am imperfect, that is why God's grace can work in me, Christians have to admit their imperfections, before God can show them otherwise.
